When I was growing up I learned things that no child should. I lived a life that no child should have to live. By the time I was 5 my father would abuse me continually and I can remember praying, begging and pleading for someone or something to save me and just take me away.
It was at this same time in my life that I remember hanging myself with my jump-rope, just to escape the abuse. This was the first of many attempts to escape from what I considered prison. Where my dad was always in control and what he wanted...happened. Nothing else mattered.
I was introduced to satan and the dark-side of the world, where you could feel nothing and escape from whatever at a big price...a price that I didn’t understand at the time.
They made it sound like it was nothing and soon I learned different spells and rituals, which made me feel powerful and invincible. It made me feel indestructible. But it always felt like something was missing, however I didn’t know what that something was.I destroyed not only myself but others around me. I was like a tornado or a big storm devouring any and all that would cross my path.
I’ve done lots of things that I’m not proud of, including destroying the lives of those who tried only to help me. I became addicted to drugs to try to escape the world, only to find it right here waiting for me. So, that’s when I just stayed high 24/7 and shut myself down and didn’t allow myself to feel. But, this got me to where I felt alone all the time and I had nothing and no one, because everyone was afraid of me.
No one wanted to be around me, which made things worse, because this just seemed to fuel my anger and frustration. Why would everyone leave me? No matter what I tried to do nothing would work. I gave up on life and wanted nothing more than to die and so I made that my goal. But, that didn’t even work.
Then I found my way to Jesus, but this road has not been an easy one either. To tell the truth, it’s been a tough road, but well worth it. I was pulled from satan’s grasp and now I battle against him, because I’ve seen what hell is and want nothing of it. It’s hot and miserable and you get nowhere. But, with Jesus you get an everlasting life, peace and love. A love that will never fade. A friend that will always be by my side. A father that won’t run away. So, in the end I will win with Jesus and satan will lose and so will his followers that believe his lies.
